Recently in my life I have had a series of ups and downs. With this series of ups and downs i have realzed who I am and who I want to be. Living up to expectations is a hard thing we all struggle with and going places expecting things is something we all face in life.
Who i was and who I am now are totally different due to one thing. My Life with Christ and my church family. I might have been down a road of destruction before and done alot of stupid things in my life but i know now where i wanna go. I love to see a youth or a kid that smiles and says, "sean that was a great message" it breaks my heart to hear a child say sean i am dissappointed in you.
Before i went to church with this preconcieved notion of something needs to happen. And when i Did this i never got anything out of the message and just went thru the motions. Now I go with expectations and excited cause i know something will happen and is going to happen.
What i hate the worst is someone usuing the excuse that oh im not getting anything out of this service so i need to try new stuff. Thats a load of garbage cause when you dont expect you wont recieve. So now im saying is that quit running from what you think is wrong instead come expecting what you know is right.
PSALM 25 4-7
Show me your ways, LORD,
teach me your paths.
5 Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
7 Do not remember the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you, LORD, are good.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Prayer
Let us pray
Lord Jesus it is you, who wakes me up every day
And I am forever grateful for your love..
.. this is why I pray
You let me touch so many people, and it's all for the good
I influenced so many children, I never thought that I would
And I couldn't take credit for the love they get
because it all comes from you Lord
I'm just the one that's givin it
And when it seems like the pressure gets to be too much
I take time out and pray, and ask that you be my crutch
Lord I am not perfect by a longshot -- I confess to you daily
But I work harder everyday, and I hope that you hear me
In my heart I mean well, but if you'll help me to grow
then what I have in my heart, will begin to show
And when I get goin, I'm not lookin back for NOTHIN
Cause I will know where I'm headed, cause I'm so tired of the
sufferin
I stand before you, a weakened version of, your reflection
Beggin for direction, for my soul needs resurrection
I don't deserve what you've given me, but you never took it from
me
because I am grateful, and I use it, and I do not, worship money
If what you want from me is to bring your children to you
my regret is only having one life to do it, instead of two
Amen
Lord Jesus it is you, who wakes me up every day
And I am forever grateful for your love..
.. this is why I pray
You let me touch so many people, and it's all for the good
I influenced so many children, I never thought that I would
And I couldn't take credit for the love they get
because it all comes from you Lord
I'm just the one that's givin it
And when it seems like the pressure gets to be too much
I take time out and pray, and ask that you be my crutch
Lord I am not perfect by a longshot -- I confess to you daily
But I work harder everyday, and I hope that you hear me
In my heart I mean well, but if you'll help me to grow
then what I have in my heart, will begin to show
And when I get goin, I'm not lookin back for NOTHIN
Cause I will know where I'm headed, cause I'm so tired of the
sufferin
I stand before you, a weakened version of, your reflection
Beggin for direction, for my soul needs resurrection
I don't deserve what you've given me, but you never took it from
me
because I am grateful, and I use it, and I do not, worship money
If what you want from me is to bring your children to you
my regret is only having one life to do it, instead of two
Amen
Eye of the storm
Think alot of people feel this way right now in life and think that right now is a great time to put this on.
If peace seperates into serenity and all equals a calm; then when we think of peace and tranquility, we really are only looking into the eye of the storm.
The storm is a blinding light that flashes when true anger comes to bear, and things are said in wasteful haste, that makes us seem like we really just don't care.
Definite pictures form in our minds, whenever we're apart, but too often promises turn to dust, again you have wounded my patient heart.
Blows dealt long ago, scars that will not heal, painful love, stiffling memories, a promise made to yourself, a promise not to feel.
So you run and barricade your heart from another, who you feel will do harm; but in truth the other seeks only to bring you to the eye of the storm.
Meaningless hours of deaf eared pleas, phrases said over time, that seems a million miles away, once again you take and wound my bleeding heart and leave standing with nothing to say.
True love is a constant serenity even while the hounds of hell howl, an everglowing, gentle calm that keeps one from throwing in the towel, to love with total trust and spirit, gaining in vision and insight like a wise old owl; to give and receive bringing to your beloved no harm, this is truly what is it means to stand in the eye of the storm.
My serenity shatters like glass under a rock wall, my beloved's heart refused my ever beckoning, lovelorn call.
As despair and hopelessness surround me and I realize that I am destined to always be alone, I am suddenly one with myself, and begin this long journey on my own.
A saddened calmness comes over me, and a sense of peace and serenity form, as I journey down life's path, I accept and understand, never again will I stand in the eye of the storm.
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